...and I'm back.

There are fun ways to be more like Buffy and not-so-fun ways.

Here are the ways in which I am like Buffy:

1)  I am a college student.

2)  I am very busy, often with things that I feel obligated to do.

3)  I love my family, and am very protective of them.

4)  My mother died way too soon, and quite unexpectedly.

5)  I'm pretty witty and sometimes am accidentally funny.

6)  I'm strong.

7)  I'm beautiful.

8)  I feel the need to act strong in front of others, even when I am really weak inside and just want to cry.  It's easier for me to be emotional when I'm alone.

As you can see,  I share some of the Slayer's qualities and life situations.  Not all of them are ways that I wish I were like her (especially number 4, duh), but that's how it is.

#4 happened in the last few months, and is why I've been away for so long.

Anyway, I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm back!  And wow, my followers quadrupled in my absense!!!  So YAY!!!

:-)

I'm stoked to be back to this blog, as it is a fun project for me.  Hopefully it will help to distract me from some of the stress that has consumed my life.  Post-mother-loss is a terrible time, especially when you are as close to your mom as me and mine were. 

My emotional eating returned with a vengeance when I lost Mom.  I gained 40 or so pounds.  Yes, I'm back to around 200 pounds and am wearing size 18 jeans.  So I'm forced to deal with the stress of hating my body size on top of everything else.

But, being back to the blog, now I'm back to ELATPBS (Eat Like A Thin Person Buffy-Style) and am working on losing the 40 pounds gained plus more.

Mostly I'm done with the scale, and will be focusing on measurements, how my body looks in pictures, and how it feels in clothes. 

My plan is to ELATPBS and to get my butt in the gym 6 days a week.

And to be gentle with myself.  My mom's unexpected death is killing me.  But she wouldn't want that.  She would want me to be happy and healthy.  So I will try.

Coming soon:  Commentary on an episode!!!  I don't know if I'm going to start from the beginning of the entire series or if I will start at the beginning of whatever season I feel like watching... but I will decide soon and come back here to review an episode, plus keep track of all of Buffy's bites and exercise. 

Buffy: Everybody wants to help. I don't even know if I'm... here. I don't know what's going on. Never done this. (pauses) That's just an amazingly dumb thing to say. Obviously I've never done this before.